Spiritual Essays #36

Are You Willing To Be Yourself?

Authentic Personality

by Jayaram V

The world follows those who do not follow the world. Jayaram V


In the Autobiography of a Yogi, Swami Paramahansa Yogananda narrated his meeting with Rabindranath Tagore, the famous Bengali Poet of the last century, and how he admired his poetry and other works. While writing about his meeting with him, he stated that in his earlier days before receiving the Noble Prize for literature Rabindranath Tagore had many critics, who used to criticize him for his style and “mixing colloquial expressions with classical,” setting aside the norms that were dear to the scholars. He mentioned that a well-known critic of his times even went to the extent of describing him as a “pigeon poet who sold his cooings in print for a rupee.”

The trend changed after Rabindranath Tagore won the Noble Prize for literature, and got a lot of recognition and attention for his literary skills in the West and all over the world. People at home realized his true merit and began praising him. Some of them who criticized him before also changed their minds and became his admirers and flatterers. The Swami narrated that after he won the prize, a delegation of scholars went to meet him at Santiniketan, where he was staying. Tagore said to have met them after making them wait for a long time and chastised them in his poetic style for their attitude stating that their fragrant honors were mixed with the “putrid odors” of past contempt, but he was still the same poet who offered his “humble flowers at the shrine of Bengal.”

Rabindranath Tagore was not the only person to go though such an experience. It is common to many people who achieve success after initial struggle. It is no wonder that many famous people posthumously achieved their fame and recognition after living a life of great hardship and suffering. Saints like Shirdi Baba, Swami Vivekananda, Maheshyogi, Acharya Rajneesh, and many writers, artists, film stars and national leaders had their ample share of struggle before they were accepted and appreciated by the public. The same happens to many people who try to initiate new movements or push new ideas into the public.

Their experience reveals an important aspect of human nature, which usually remains hidden from public view but can be noticed with some effort. It is well evident even today in public life, on the Internet, in the media, and on many social networks. People seek celebrities and famous politicians only after they become popular, and after they gain a large following. The people they admire might have had a difficult time and spurned by many before they became popular. It is as if more money gets more money, more popularity begets more popularity, and vice versa. Familiarity may breed contempt, but it also brings acceptance.

Why is it so? Why do people not appreciate genuine talent or support good leaders, products and ideas purely based on their merit, instead of their popularity? One of the important reasons is that people tend to follow popular opinion rather than their own because they either do not have time to think or cannot trust their own thinking and reasoning. Many seek approval and appreciation from others to feel good about themselves or their decisions, or follow popular opinion or authority symbols to reassure themselves that they are on the right side of things. It is comforting for many to look for approval and the opinion of others to validate their own decisions, opinions, choices, and judgments.https://googleads.

When they see that a person or an idea is acceptable to a large number of people in society, they automatically assume that the choice is good enough to accept. Therefore, they find no difficulty in joining the crowd to appreciate things. This is the herd mentality, or the group think, with which many are familiar. When you are in a crowd ,you tend to be carried away by the emotions of the crowd and more likely you try to fit in rather than standout. Unless you are very independent minded and value your individuality, you will follow the trodden paths and tested methods rather than choosing your own.

Celebrate your ife on your terms

It is important to be a social person and to live in harmony with others. However, it is equally important to honor your individuality and self-worth. To be an authentic person you must be in touch with your true feelings and trust your own discernment, rather than becoming a blind follower of other people’s opinions. You must have a mind of your own and be yourself. Otherwise what is the point of living a life that you cannot own or claim as yours? What is the point of living your life in the mental image of another person?

The best way to celebrate your life is to be yourself, even if you do not find in you what you may find in those whom you hold in great esteem. You must be the measure of your own esteem and self-worth, and you must be courageous and honest enough to accept yourself with all your faults and perfections. You have only one genuine guardian to guard your life and your persona against the world, and that is you. You cannot suppress that person in the hope of gaining approval from others.

Own your identity and individuality

You can be an authentic person, when you do not suppress your inner voice and your true feelings about things and people, and when you do not color your perceptions and experiences with false narratives. You do not have to express your true opinions, if they are going to hurt others, but you must be aware of them and acknowledge them. You must know when you are hurt, when you are angry, when you are afraid, and how you relate to others in your own inner world. That inner world of yours is more important and precious than anything else in the world, because it is your only sanctuary. Otherwise, where else you can hide when you are hurt by the world or troubled by circumstances?

See how far you have gone away from yourself and alienated yourself from yourself. How much you dislike for being yourself, what you are, or what you do. See whether you have developed a public image to make peace with the world and fit in, which you have accepted as your true self-image. Unless you know who you truly are, you will never able to know the difference. You may make compromises with the world, or you may fit in with a crowd for any reason, but you should know that you are doing it for a reason and it is different from what you truly feel inside.

Feelings are the doorways to your authentic personality, which you may often cover up in a maze of cleverly crafted words and delusional justifications. If you want to be your true self, you should not be afraid to be yourself or accept your true feelings. In the heart of your heart you must know who you are and what you truly stand for. Only then you will be able to discern the world for what it is and remain mentally free from self-deception and rationalization. Without it, all your search for spirituality, self-realization, mental peace, inner harmony, balance, stability, yoga practice, meditation, friendship, and even marriage, become superfluous and part of a manipulate and self-deceptive drama. Therefore, first surrender to your true identity and embrace it, before you surrender to God, divinity, or a guru.

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Seth Kelly Curtis

Spiritual Teachings #3 Christianity

From Mystic Treatises by Saint Isaac of Nineveh

Faith is the gate to the mysteries. What the bodily eye is for the things of the senses, the same is faith in connection with the treasures hidden to the eyes of the mind.

We possess two psychic eyes, as the Fathers say, just as we possess two bodily eyes. But both have not the same purpose as to sight.

With one we see the hidden glory of God which is concealed in the things of nature, His power and His wisdom, and His eternal care for us which by His particular providence is directed unto us. With the same eye we also see the spiritual classes of our fellow-beings. With the other we see the glory of His holy nature. When our Lord desires to give us initiation to the spiritual mysteries, He opens in our mind the ocean of faith.

As a grace beyond a grace has repentance been given to man. Repentance is being born anew in God. That of which we have received the pledge by baptism, we receive as a gift by repentance. Repentance is the gate of mercy, which is opened to all who seek it. Through this gate we go in to Divine Mercy. Apart from this entrance it is not possible to find mercy. Because all have sinned, according to the words of Scripture, and are justified freely by grace. (Rom. 3, 23) Repentance is a second grace; it is born in the heart from faith and fear. Fear* is the paternal rod which guides us up to the spiritual Eden. When we have arrived there, it leaves us and returns. Eden is the divine love wherein is the paradise of all goods, where the blessed Paul was sustained by supernatural food. When he had eaten from the tree of life which is there, he exclaimed: “eye has not seen nor ear heard neither have entered into the heart of man the things which God has prepared for them that love Him.” (I Cor. 2, 9) Adam was bereft of this tree by the promise of the Devil. The tree of life is the divine love which Adam lost by his fall, after which he worked and wearied himself. Those who are bereft of divine love are still eating the bread that is won by the sweat of their labour, even though they work righteousness, as was commanded to the head of our race when he lost it by his fall. Until we find love, we work in the earth with her thorns. Among thorns we sow and reap, even if we sow the seed of righteousness. Perpetually we are pricked by them, even if we are justified, and live with sweat on our faces.

When, however, we have found love, we eat the heavenly bread and we are sustained without labour and without weariness. Love is sufficient to feed man instead of food and drink. This is the wine that gladdens the heart of man. Blessed is he who has drunk from this wine.

As it is not possible to cross the ocean without a boat or a ship, so no one can cross towards love, without fear. This foetid sea, which lies between us and the intelligible paradise, we cross in the boat of repentance, which has fear for a rudder. If the rudder of fear does not govern this ship of repentance, in which we cross the sea of this world towards God, we shall be drowned in the foetid sea. Repentance is the ship, fear is the governor, love is the divine port.

When we have reached love, we have reached God and our way is ended and we have passed unto the island which lieth beyond the world, where is the Father and the Son and the Holy Spirit; to whom be glory and dominion. That He make us worthy to fear and to love him. Amen.

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Rosicrucian Reflections #79

“As mystics throughout time have found, the road to discovery, to peace and enlightenment is a journey into Self. There is more to our conscious being than we realize and it is from within that we find the keys that unlock our inner wisdom. It is from within that we can connect with the source of knowledge that lies beyond the limits of our five senses.”

-Rosicrucian Manuscript

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Essene Meditations And Blessings #81

Meditation

Solar light,

Ancient source of power and life,

It is you who guides my path this day.

‘Tis the season of your ruling,

And I, like you,

Must use this moment fully

To urge the world to grow.

And grow it will,

And grow I will

To the fullness of my potential,

For that is who I AM.

The Blessing

Does not the apple tree

Share its fruit with all,

Not choosing who is blessed?

As my vessel

Overflows with love,

Do I not share this love with all?

For in our oneness

There exist no chosen ones.

Only fellow travelers do I see

On the path

Back home to God.

-Danaan Parry

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Weekly Meditation #78

I Fear No Evil

“I will fear no evil, for you are with me.” I will not be afraid, for the All Good is constantly with me and is always near at hand to guide and comfort. There is no evil in the truth, and no power of darkness to hinder the light from shining. I will not be afraid, for there is that within which protects and keeps me from all harm. I fear no evil.

-Ernest Holmes

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Science Of Mind #51

I Recognize The Indwelling Spirit

A belief in the Invisible is the very essence of faith. Prayer, or spiritual communion, demands a complete surrender to the Invisible. It knows that because the Creative Power of God is at hand, all things are possible.

Whatever our idea of God may be, the perception of Reality is always an inner perception. As Moses tells us, the word is not afar off but in our own mouths, and Jesus taught that the Kingdom of Heaven is within us. The prayer of power is not so much a petition as it is an inner recognition.

We cannot doubt that the Spirit has already made the gift of Life – since we live. Ours is the privilege of acceptance. Thus we are to assume the attitude of a grateful beneficiary of the Divine gifts. This should be done simply and directly. The Spirit is not something that was, or that is going to be or become. The Truth is that which is; it exists at the very center of our being. To pray in spirit and in truth means to recognize this indwelling Spirit and to declare the truth about its activity through us.

Today I directly experience the reality of Spirit, allowing It to renew my mind, guide my decisions, and direct my affairs. I know that in the eternal act of creation, everything passes from the Invisible to the visible to be temporarily experienced. I rest in peace, assured that my needs are met by this play of Life upon Itself.

-Ernest Holmes

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Spiritual Essays #35

A World Without Mirrors and Milestones

Reflection

by Jayaram V

In the spiritual world knowing is a happening, not an effort. In that knowing there is no certainty or security. If you think you know, you may not know. Jayaram V


You are always someone in a context, in a relationship or in comparison to something. Without it, you do not know what you are and how you measure up. Your knowledge also rests upon many assumptions and beliefs. Take them away from the equation, and you will have a hard time drawing valid conclusions about yourself.

Truly speaking, your self-knowledge is mostly assumptive rather than factual. From an existential point of view it is not a problem at all since you can live your whole life without knowing much about yourself. Are not the animals able to live without much self-awareness? However, difficulties arise when you step out of your comfort zone and probe your consciousness to know your true nature.

What is the best way to do it? In the perceptual world, you rely upon both objectivity and subjectivity to ascertain any truth. In doing so, you try to remain free from bias and logical errors. Scientifically, there is no other way to know the world. However, with regard to self-knowledge this approach may not be much helpful unless you pay attention to it with non-judgmental awareness. Here you have to rely more upon your subjective experience and become a mirror to things rather than look at them in the mirror of your mind.

There are many types of subjective experience. In some you are aware of your awareness, as you engage your mind and senses in the process of knowing. However, as your practice of calming your mind and senses deepens, you may enter a state of pure subjectivity without awareness, judgment, observation, analysis, comparison, and relationship. It is an indeterminate state, which is beyond the grasp of your mind and intellect. Let us dwell upon this state and why it cannot be objectified.

magine you live in a world without a mirror. Imagine in that world nothing is reflected and nothing works like a mirror to produce a mirror image. In such a world how can you see yourself and know how you look or what distinguishing features you have? You may see parts of your body and make some assumptions about them. You may also learn from others how they perceive you, and how you appear to them. However, since you do not have any mirror or reflecting surface, you cannot subjectively validate that knowledge. You have to fully rely upon others to create your self-image.

You do not have such a problem in our world because you can see your reflection in a mirror, or rely upon a photograph, video camera, motion picture or any image capturing device to look at yourself. In addition, you may also rely upon other’s opinion about you. Through introspection, meditation, observation, you may also subjectively gain insight into your behavior and personality.

However, objectivity is not very helpful if you want to go beyond your mind and senses to know yourself. In the transcendental states, you have none of the physical or mental means to observe yourself or know yourself. The transcendental world is a world without reflections, and duality. It is free from forms and totally self-existing without a second, where you do not experience otherness or any relationship. There you have to rely upon your own intelligence to be aware and awake, without the senses, mind, and memory.

Since there is no duality no one can really explain to you what happens in a transcendental state. It is true even for those who have experienced self-realization or god-realization. They cannot clearly articulate their experience or hold that state in their wakeful consciousness. Therefore, usually a sage does not confirm whether he had entered the state of Self or Brahman. Others may know about it from his words, behavior, conduct, mental brilliance, but he may choose to remain silent about it. He may speak to you about the state, but he may not show particular interest in letting everyone know about his own experience.

Ordinary people enter the state of non-duality every day during deep sleep. They do not know it because their minds and senses remain asleep and their memory remains inactive. Deep sleep is a subjective experience without any subject. When spiritual people enter a similar state through meditation, they experience the same predicament.

However, since it is a culmination of willful self-effort the experience brings a sudden shift in their awareness and transforms them whereby they do not have to struggle to control their lower impulses or manifest their higher nature. For them detachment and dispassion arises naturally as they become free from desires, attraction and aversion, attachments, confusion, delusion, evil thoughts, and worldliness. As they tap into their higher wisdom, they experience a new found sense of freedom, without expectations, want, worry and anxiety, which ordinary people experience in their waking hours.

It is the miracle of self-realization, and the highest of all perfections (siddhis). If you want to know whether a yogi has experienced self-realization, look in him for those qualities. When you see them in a seer or a guru, or even a seemingly ordinary person, know that that person has tasted the stateless state of Supreme Brahman and reached the culmination of spiritual perfection.

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Rosicrucian Reflections #78

“First of all, we must be in harmony with ourselves; we must come to accept ourselves. The best way to achieve this is to never compare ourselves with others, because the moment we do, we then judge ourselves inferior or esteem ourselves as superior, resulting in either an inferiority complex or an inflated ego. In both cases the result is a state of disharmony. To avoid this, it is best to begin with the principle that each of us is a unique being and that this uniqueness gives us our worth in God’s view, as well as in the eyes of humanity. Therefore, we should hold to our own standard, comparing ourselves only to ourselves—this being the key to our spiritual evolution.”

-Christian Bernard

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Weekly Meditation #76

Complete Confidence

My confidence in the All Good is complete. My faith in the power of Spirit is supreme. I have no doubts or uncertainties. I know that my good is at hand, and I realize that no fear can hinder that good from making its appearance in my life and affairs. I know that my life and good are complete. Evil cannot touch or hinder my work. I rest in security, for the one mind is my complete refuge and strength. I am serene and confident.

-Ernest Holmes

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Science Of Mind #49

Each New Day Is A Fresh Beginning

While there is a place that dwells in eternal stillness and inaction in the innermost recesses of our soul, there is also a place at the circumference of our being that, animated by the inner Spirit, goes forth to accomplish. If we will take time daily to sense this Presence, believe in It, and accept It, before long the life we have known until now will gradually disappear. Something new and wonderful will be born – a bigger, better, and more perfect life. We will ,pass from sadness into happiness, from lack and want into greater freedom, and from fear into assurance. Through the continual emergence of the Creative Principle, any last finality proves to be but the beginning of a new creative series. This eternal spiral, finding its base in the everlasting Reality, will never cease to emerge. Our increased awareness of spiritual truths will make each day a fresh beginning, a new approach to Reality, a spiritual adventure arising fresh and new from the original Creative Principle active within us.

I enjoy my present experiences and joyously anticipate each day’s increasing good. Opening my heart and mind, I allow the creative action of God to express through me, aware that as my capacity to accept good expands, I become a blessing both to myself and to the world in which I live. I rejoice at the greater possibilities of my future unfoldment.

-Ernest Holmes

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