I start my quest

June 23 2019


I was raised a Catholic, well, sort of. My fathers side of the family were Catholics. My mothers, atheists. My immediate family really didn’t attend church, my fathers side – the Curtis side – did attend, my Grandmother being heavily involved with the church. The only times I attended was during school at St James Catholic. My mothers side – the McCoy side- believed once you died, that was it. It seems almost a miracle that I would end up in search of spirituality with those family backgrounds, but I did and here’s how it happened.

I always believed in God in one way or another. I never really thought God was some old man in a robe and beard, sitting on a throne suspended on clouds somewhere in space, but I knew God was out there somewhere.. My idea of God has evolved over the years. Now I believe God is simply the universe. That is, the animating force of everything. To me, God is loving, not judgemental or punishing, and if God created a hell, he’s no god of mine. God is Love.

My way of thinking about the universe started changing when I was in my twenties. I’d always been open minded, but I think I can trace when it all started changing for me to a time I was in the library. An avid reader, I was scouring the aisles for something to read. I returned to an aisle I’d been in only a minute before, and there was a book on the ledge that hadn’t been there before. Odd, no-one had been in the aisle since I’d left. I picked up the book and scanned it’s contents. I was intrigued. It was all about the afterlife, spirits, reincarnation and angels.. Well, here was something interesting. I checked it out and took it home. That book started me on a quest for knowledge. Knowledge of all things esoteric, spiritual, and scientific. I’ve come to find out that they all tie in together. Today I have read oodles of books on the subject and have many more on my kindle. I just drink this knowledge up. It doesn’t all jell with what I am coming to believe. I retain what makes sense to me and my beliefs and dismiss what doesn’t. We mustn’t let others do our thinking for us, we must weigh what we learn and decide if it makes sense to us. I’m a fifty-eight year old man now and on a quest for the truth and knowledge, and to become more spiritual, to raise my vibration, and in doing so, hopefully to help raise the vibration of the planet.

I believe I was meant to find that book in the library. It changed the way I think and opened my mind. Let’s all have open minds and positive thoughts.


May you always be –

Healthy, Happy,

Safe, and Comfortable.



Kelly Curtis

20 comments on “I start my quest

  1. Katherine says:

    God is always with us, in one way or another. The important thing is to realize its presence and to be thankful for everything.
    I am orthodox as my whole family but I always considered that God is the same one, but the people chose to divide it.
    Have a great weekend!

  2. annecreates says:

    I also look at God as “the universe.” Spirituality is tough for me, as the church I was raised in was not kind to me. Lots of people do very bad things in the name of religion.

  3. I agree about God being not a man-like figure, but rather some great force or energy

  4. I was also bought up a catholic.. I still believe in God and place him before the universe.. Bad things happen amongst people and in nature.. tsunami’s etc.. I do believe above all God id Love.. 😉

  5. who is ms eve? says:

    I too prefer spirituality over religion. Great post I have a similar story.

  6. emberbear says:

    Great story and I have come to similar conclusions about the nature of the Divine Spirit and the universe. I have come across important books in similar ways. Quite recently, a wonderful book in the library more or less threw itself off the shelf and on to the floor to get my attention. It was Druidry and Meditation by Nimue Brown, which set off yet another line of enquiry. I enjoy the never ending nature of the quest. Thank you for reposting your origin story, Kelly.

  7. Thank you for sharing something so intimate and personal Kelly. The world famous author, Paulo Coelho said, in his book ‘Aleph’ “Anyone who knows God, can’t describe (God). Anyone who describes God, doesn’t know (God). When God spoke to Moses, (God) said, ‘I Am’. So God is therefore neither subject or predicate, (God) is the verb – the action.” Brackets are my use, to keep the quote asexual, I’m sure Paulo will grant me licence. Peter.

  8. Robert says:

    Spiritual journeys always lead you to the right place.

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