What I’ve learned on my spiritual quest.

“Nothing ever goes away until it has taught us what we need to know.”

– Pema Chodron


I started on the path of my spiritual quest in my mid-twenties, right after I got out of the military. Having been raised in a half Catholic, half athiest family, I was able to make up my own mind on spiritual matters. We didn’t go to church in my immediate family so there was never any pressure to lead a religious life, or for that matter, a non-religious life. That notwithstanding, I did go to a Catholic school, fourth, seventh, and eighth grades, where my cousin Amby and I were notorious for getting into mischief. We had Nuns for teachers, straight from Ireland. I loved their accents, but had no love for their tempers. Amby and I made several trips to the Mother Superior’s office. She never saw the humor in our hijinks that my cousin and I saw.

I respected the Catholic religion, and still do, just as I respect all religions, but I have different ideas about spirituality, Mother Superior notwithstanding.

Here’s what I’ve come to believe after thirty-five years of spiritual quest. I know everyone will not agree with everything I believe , and I respect that, I think that’s the way God wants it, free will. So, after much research, reading, musing, and life experience, this is what I believe, what makes sense to me:

  1.    I believe that God isn’t some “man” sitting on a throne somewhere in the sky. If God was humanlike, God would be female anyway.
  2. I believe God is the animating force that permeates the universe. This is our lifeforce. It’s what holds everything together. It’s in you and me, and that rock over there, it’s what powers the sun, and makes the flowers grow. It’s what holds the planets in space and makes the blood flow in our viens. God is, simply put, everything, and we’re working our way back to her/him/it.
  3. I believe in reincarnation. I think we keep returning, learning each time until we get it right. I don’t believe we have just one shot at getting it right, and if we blow it we are tortured for eternity.
  4. Once we get it right, we don’t go to some paradise in the shy, but carry on, out into the universe on a great adventure, to a higher plane, to do more good work, until we rise once again on our quest to get back to God.
  5. We’re not here to amass as much wealth or material goods as we can, but to grow as spirits by giving of ourselves, by doing good deeds, by raising our vibrations thereby raising the planets vibration.
  6. I believe that we are in the universe, but likewise, the universe is in us. UNI-VERSE. Uni being one. The universe is a hologram. All is one, and one is all.
  7. I believe that we as Humans are much more powerful than we believe. we are made to be very creative beings. We can create the life of our dreams, but we have been conditioned since infancy to believe that we have no power, that we are at the mercy of fate. Nothing could be further from the truth in my opinion. We believe so strongly in our impotency because that is what has been drilled into us from an early age, that has been our reality.

If we could just forget our conditioning and think for ourselves, we would have the power to change our world, to make this planet a paradise of love and joy. All we must do is believe enough, use our imaginations. Visualize the life you want. Put emotion into it, really believe, no doubting allowed, and it will come to pass.

Let’s all try to create a more peaceful, beautiful planet, end suffering, and bring more joy and love to mother earth. we can do it if we believe.

May God bless and protect you and…

May you always be

Healthy, Happy

Safe, and Comfortable.


Kelly Curtis




31 comments on “What I’ve learned on my spiritual quest.

  1. MAP195 says:

    fantastic share

  2. Kelly, I’m glad you’ve been searching. Some people just don’t want to think very hard about what the truth may be. In all your research, have you ever heard of salvation?

  3. Jenny Furse says:

    Interesting and beautiful thoughts. Thanks for sharing!

  4. You make some great conclusions, though I can’t agree with all o them. The Bible attributes lots of feminine qualities to God, so he is both feminine and masculine.

  5. craig lock says:

    Reblogged this on Beyond the Zone: God and The Spiritual Journey and commented:

    Hi Kelly
    Thanks for another follow * (+ likes), as the reason I write is to share.
    * (Though my family and close friends say it would be far more entertaining with a video-camera # in “real life”, rather than in cyberspace!)

    # By the way, do they still make them in today’s ever-faster changing world..or is it all done with mobile phones?

    (get with the times now,”luddite”* c – it should be a smart phone)

    * or so I was often called by my “my techno-geek” friend, Bill (“the gonk”)

    “total non-techno” c (who doesn’t possess a mobile phone, after a rather eventful’ experience some years back, whilst trying to walk, talk and chew gum at the same time)

    Who says men can’t multi-task!

    Kind regards and all the best with your blog

    “early bird” (very) * craig
    * my “best” time (by far)

    “You will do foolish things…but do them with enthusiasm.”
    – Colette


    Best wishes from the First City to see the sun (in summer) …and we’re also the first to see the sunset and the stars (in winter-time)

    “I will love the light for it shows me the way, yet I will endure the darkness because it shows me the stars.”

    • kirby0311 says:

      Thank again Craig, I appreciate it very much. You know, I still don’t have a smart phone, I have a flip phone. I know the day is coming when I’ll have to get a smart phone just to accomplish anything in this day and age. Take care.

  6. craig lock says:

    a pleasure
    just learning to use my smartphone (my technogeek” friend, Bill helps “luddite/non-techno” me)
    enjoy your evening, Kelly
    “not so smart” c

  7. Donny Duke says:

    My God what a big subject, I mean, God. Maybe it’s all of the above, like there really are God-beings on thrones or whatnot in heavens in this cosmos, each helping the world with its divine ideal, ideals in harmony or complementary up there but at war almost down here, and Gods in unimaginable stations in other universes, and Gods in stations in what’s bigger than universes but who permeate them, like a cosmos being a special project of one of those bigger than universe beings, and then Gods bigger than those Gods ad infinitum, and then there’s God God, that permeates all, or is all rather, but is conscious of the least little God as itself and the least little atom-animal-us, who in this light can be seen an heir to the throne too, albeit as yet largely unconscious of that, but this is still a linear rendering of what wouldn’t be in a line or even symmetrical but weirdly, perfectly, going this way and that like nature does on our little spaceship, swirling earth.

    Ever wonder what you’d see if you could zoom out big enough? What would a human cell see if it did that to the point it could see the body it made up, or a subatomic particle the atom it made up for that matter? The answer’s in the question. I wouldn’t think there’s an end to the zooming, to the bigger and bigger being we make up, and again, this is a linear picture of things multifarious and impossibly different from our way of being, but when trying to imagine the evolution of being that fills never ending or beginning time, well, our one idea at a time mind just can’t get the picture. It’s like, beyond our imagination, but we really limit our imagination when contemplating the existence of God. You get the picture?

    It’s a long read, but here’s an article about the bigger than universe being that’s made our little cosmos its special project, or at least how I experienced it at any rate: http://www.shift.is/2015/03/whats-bigger-than-the-universe-hang-on-whats-bigger-than-everything/

    I will only add that this isn’t punishment for liking a comment of mine on another blog, or at least I hope you don’t see it that way. I hesitated before commenting to try and not come from the show off or snob but from a genuine need to share. That you’re ex-military aided my desire to share. I’m an ex-SFer. If I said ex-Green Beret would that be showing off?

    • Kelly Curtis says:

      As to if you would be sdhowing off by stating that you were a Green Beret, no, you should be proud of that. I would salute you but if you were an enlisted man like I was that would insult you. So here’s to you Duke, a handshake. I was Marine Infantry, with one year in Recon. Now, to the rest of your comment. I have thought the same thing. It boggles the mind how far you could go with that train of thought. If there are multiple universes, then I agree, there is one God running the whole show. Anyway, it definitely gives you something to think about. Take care.

      • Donny Duke says:

        In the army Special Forces, it’s considered hollywood (bragging) to call yourself a Green Beret, or at least it was when I was one, and so we called our outfit SF and ourselves SFers. I was a light weapons SGT (E-5) on an A-team. I went through the Q course (the qualification course) with 3 or 4 Marine Recon, our class was 6-1982 WETSU (short for ‘we eat this shit up’), what we yelled whenever the class was called to attention. I like the way you put it Marine, “one God running the whole show.”

      • Kelly Curtis says:

        Am I right in assuming that class 6-1982 took place in the year 1982? I served from 1980-1984. Any way, well done Sgt.

      • Donny Duke says:

        Yep. I served from 1979-84. I was also infantry, airborne, which converted to light or heavy weapons in SF. What a meaningful coincidence. I mean, this is God winking at us man. I figured you’d say, about me serving in ’82: “wow, that was a long time ago old man.” Anyway, I pulled security for a tactical nuclear weapons team and parachuted with my team in West Germany and pretended to blow up someplace, but it was a real nuke, minus the plutonium, and there was some doubt in the begging if it were real world or not. It was an eye-opener to the world, because it got me thinking more about the world and than just my nation, but I do love my country.

      • Kelly Curtis says:

        Yes, glad we crossed paths. We did some things during that period that made me take things a little more seriously. Take care.

    • Jsam says:

      Very interesting

  8. bernard25 says:


    Chaque jour quelque soit l’heure
    J’allume mon ordinateur
    Ce n’est qu’une petite boîte rectangulaire
    Parfois elle me fais râlé
    Parce qu’elle me fait attendre
    Pourtant elle a le cœur tendre
    Elle t’envoie mes courriers
    Sans jamais se fatiguer
    Elle affiche mes mots
    Sans jamais me dire si c’est trop
    Elle transporte mes images
    Qu’elle affiche sur tes pages

    Maintenant encore
    Elle t’envoie un bisou de ma part
    Te souhaite une très très belle journée
    Profite bien

  9. Mr. Mel says:

    Great start Kelly, it only gets better.🙏❤️

  10. Love your concept of “Uni-verse.” I share a similar spiritual journey and have come to many of the same conclusions. Wish it didn’t take me as long as it has but, better late than never. I realize I had to experience everything I have until this point to have the level of understanding I do now…which will most likely continue to evolve as I experience more of life.

  11. ellie894 says:

    Beautifully written. Take care, suzanne 🌷

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